First of all cyber hugs to you Isambard Crater. The cult leaders deliberately make it so very difficult to leave.
The issue you are discussing is your mental health and all is not lost. The first thing is to recognize just how important it is that you now have the knowledge that
1/ JWs are not all they are cracked up to be
2/ there is a real and good world outside of the JW org and in fact you have already found friends who are not religious zombies-- and that is a very good start.
The problem lies with your parents with their brainwashed thinking and their relationship with you.
Since the most important thing is your own well-being and not that of your parents however much you love them, may I suggest that you only do the things which give you back YOUR freedom to live the life YOU choose. This is not selfish, it is your birthright which the JW organisation has stolen from you.
Stop going to the meetings-- they only prolong the agony.
Tell your parents that you love them but not the JW organisation.
It's not all hopeless, many if not most of us here have been through it and we'll support you!